Friday, December 2, 2016

Your Face Will Thank You

Hello my people!!! Hope you're all surviving the fact that it's officially winter..... I'm dealing as well as I can! My skin is usually trippin hard core right about now this time of year, but not this time!! Check out why in my video below!! Your face will thank you!!

Ashley is teaming up with me today to give away these amazing Acute Care Strips that are baaaasically like Botox (which is the freaking best). SO head over to insta & enter to win!! 

Ashley Rowan: Rodan & Fields Distributor


ICYMI I have added a Beauty Collection to the Be More Collection!! I am soooo excited to start focusing on this passion of mine again, Tara is back everyone!! I am doing a super fun "A few of my favorite things" giveaways over on my instagram for the launch of this new brand!! I will be announcing the winners at our Be More Beauty Launch Party next Wednesday December 7th in Provo!! We will be having a Sun Kissed, Lips & Sip event! Check out the Facebook event & RSVP now to reserve your treatment!! We will be doing discounted Spray Tans, Gel Manicures, Free Styling & playing with makeup & having awesome GIVEAWAYS!! See you there!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Be More, Boomr & Bri Ray

Be More, Boomr App & Bri Ray (say that 3 times fast)!!

Back in October Be More teamed up with Boomr App & Survive Designs for a Breast Cancer Research event & I had the pleasure of meeting The Bri Ray & hearing her perform live for the first time! Being very immersed in the music world here in Provo, as all of my friends are talented musicians I thought to myself, holy cow, this girl has got it where did she come from?! Bri has been singing since she was 8 & started performing shortly after that! Be More, as many of you know, is my clothing collection that is scholarship based & gives back to women who are pursuing a creative career. We want to empower women to pursue careers based off of their talents & we LOVE that Bri is doing JUST THAT! Bri is getting ready to drop a single (this week) & will be debuting it LIVE at Velour Music Gallery in Provo, Ut on Saturday Nov 26th! She will be headlining the show and will be preceded by other female artists including Be More's first sponsored artist, Ashley Hess. The night will be jam packed with some serious Girl Power!

I was able to chat a little bit about Bri's upcoming single with the girl herself and get the inside scoop! "Never There" is taken from some of her personal experience & is about a bad relationship where feelings were make believe and the love she thought she was sharing was.. well, never there! We've all been there girl, we've all been there! It's musical roots definitely give you the pop soul feel! With her inspiration coming from powerhouse voices like Adele & Sam Smith & soulful runs like Tori Kelly & Alicia Keys she will be leaving us with all of the feels!! If you happened to watch the last season of American Idol, she may already be a familiar face! We talked a bit about her experience there & she shared that appreciated her experience and has seen how it has refined her as an artist! If there is one thing she stands by, it is her individuality & her determination to always be true to herself, her music & her beliefs. Preach girl!!

Along with dropping her single Wednesday she will be sharing a music video to accompany it! Bri filmed her video with the Boomr App creative team & has been working closely with their marketing team to share her music with the world! Boomr App is an up and coming social media app that will be making it's own debut before 2016 ends, so watch for more exciting things with them!!

Bri & I also got to play dress up & snapped some pics showcasing new pieces from Be More Clothing Collection! Check those out below!!

Make sure you check out Bri Ray & buy her single "Never There" Wednesday!! And if you're local come hang with me and the Queen at her show Saturday Nov 26th at Velour! Watch out world Bri Ray is here & she is about to take over!

Find Bri Ray

Photos: Ashley Rae 

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Sunday, October 23, 2016

Zippide do da

This week has been something else! It feels like an eternity since I was on vacation in San Diego visting family & supporting my girlfriend at the We Society Event! I have had a complete change of vision and new out look on so many things after leaving "real life" for a few days! I am working on something new and i am nervous to share it with you all, but also everything I learned over my vaca is making it just a liiiiitle easier to put it out there! Something I will explain when the time is right! Anyway, like i said, this week was crazy. So many opportunities have been open to me recently and I have been able to find some resolve in my personal life and damn it feels good to be me again! I have been working on the Be More brand like whooooooa lately & I hired an assistant (in addition to my intern_ to turn up the heat! We have some deals going to this week & this top is one of them! I am a sucker for stripe tops, like, I have a problem. But I mean, I need them all. You get it. I know you do! Sneak on over to Jane and grab one of these tops, this is the White with Black striped one! It comes in 3 colors, with two black and white stripe options, and yes, they are different. swears. Okay well off to finish another FUN project! Happy Monday! xoxox

tara: top: be more collection for // neck scarf: be more collection // pants: target // shoes: musse & cloud
q: top: h&m sold out  // shorts: target (diy cut offs) // sneakers: c/o famous footwear // bow: everly avenue

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Sunday, October 2, 2016

I can see clearly now

I can see clearly now. Okay so the title of this post can be a little deceiving. Am I meaning literally, or figuratively? Well, both! I've attached some cutie little pictures of my new glasses from which I love love love. But thats not really why I am here. I am here because I've been promising my side of the story for far far far too long. 

Where do I begin? In an effort to not place blame or throw anyone under any buses (Regina George went through that for us) for anything they've said or done I will do my best to keep this as positive and constructive as I can. With that said, why am I here? I am here to share my hurt & my struggle to hopefully help someone who may be struggling with something similar. I am here to share how I turned my situation into an opportunity for growth. 

If you have followed my social media for a while you will know that I was in an on again off again relationship with my baby's dad for a long long time... 3.5 years, but who's really counting? oh me, that's who. We ended our relationship briefly after I gave birth to our perfect little baby! He initiated the end of our relationship because he felt we deserved more than what we had together. That was insane amounts of hard for me to hear, I am the kind of girl who will stay in something & stick it out no matter how hard it may be. And I will give it my all to a fault. Was he right that we had run our course? He was, and I knew then and there when things were ending that it was what needed to happen. That didn't make it any easier, especially as I was stepping into the role of motherhood for the first time. And i was TERRIFIED to do it alone. This new role seemed quite impossible to figure out without the constant support and encouragement of someone who was, in my naive opinion, supposed to be there by my side no matter how hard things were. I will not discredit my baby's dad for his efforts, he did what he felt was his best. Unfortunately, to be frank, his best wasn't good enough for me. This is probably what the main catalyst of our ending our life together was, I always needed more than I was given & I felt that translated in my need as a mother as well. 

Months passed & we began getting into a co-parenting groove while still living together (we both agreed that being with our Q for the day to day was important for her and for us to continue to build our relationship with her in her infant state). Just as I felt things were in a smooth easy groove there it was, the truth I had known for a very very long time smacking me right in the face via text. While my baby's dad & I were not together, there was a sense of family that I felt was there as we shared our lives together. Things that were agreed upon when we ended things, yet decided to continue to live together, seemed logical & easy for me to keep on my end. Unfortunately as hard as you try to keep your "family" intact things change, people change and they move on and situations change. 

When you have an idea of what your life is supposed to look like and someone else comes into your world to change that idea & to change it's course, it can seem like THE worst thing that could ever happen to you. Losing "MY family," having it break apart in a way that I did not expect and with factors that seemed almost impossible to forgive seemed like something I could not get over. Like ever. I was mad, okay, I was irate. I felt betrayed, I felt stupid, but mostly I was worried. I was worried that my baby wasn't going to have a functioning family. I let that tear me apart for a very very long time. I was sad that I lost my person. I was hurt & pissed at myself for trusting people in my life to hold up their end of our friendship. I talked, and I talked a lot. I shared my frustrations of my situation with anyone who would hear it. I took my feelings to the internet. I said terrible mean things. I cried, a lot. I put blame where it was not intended. I worked a lot. I stopped eating. Yep, I was so upset I was physically ill & could not stomach much of anything. Months of back and forth with this mess, that I helped perpetuate, tore me apart. It continued to tear my now non functioning family apart. I lost so much more than this family I wanted so badly. I lost my life. This thing consumed me, it changed me. While I was in the thick of it I became someone I never even knew I could be. I always did my best to take responsibility for my wrong doings, for the things I said and for the people I often purposefully hurt. I figured if I would hurt anyone involved should get to feel what I felt. I realize now how selfish I was. 

After the dust settled, and we all took a step back and took the space we needed, and we all made efforts in healing, things became so clear. At least for me. Sometimes you need to go through the fire of hell and get burned (so many damn times) to become refined. I realize now how miserable I let myself be. I let myself be this miserable by holding on to something that wasn't real. I had this idea of what a family should be. I was so hard on myself for not being able to give my baby a functioning family with a loving mom & dad. But as hard & different as it is, we are a family. Love in this family is not shared by a mom and a dad. Instead all the love we've got is channeled to that perfect baby we share. 

I said this changed me, and boy, it did. I went from someone who I thought was strong enough to face anything, to someone I never wanted to be, and now I am someone I can be proud of again. So how in the literal hell did I do it?? Honestly, I don't even know, I just did. I applied a few of the following things to my situation and found my way out.

 You are stronger than you think you are. You will be faced with things you never imagined, things you do not think you can face & survive. Your struggles are preparing you for even harder times. The thing you consider the hardest to face will most likely not be the hardest thing you will endure. All of our struggles are preparing us to make it through harder things. You are stronger than you know, do not let the person you are become a person you don't want to be. Do not let your struggles define you.

 Be patient with yourself, you are doing your best. Even if your best feels like your worst give yourself credit, and give yourself time, healing sometimes comes slowly. DO not rush your progress. Take it one step at a time. 

Be Honest
Be honest with yourself. What do you want? why do you want it? is this worth it? and is this ultimately what you want your life to be? Sometimes we know the truth but are too afraid to admit it, even to ourselves. Ask yourself these questions in whatever situation you are currently in & BE HONEST with yourself.

 Silence is golden they say, idk who they are but they are on to something. Sometimes keeping the hurt and anger you have to yourself is the hardest thing you can do. Find someone you can trust and confide in. Talking your mouth off will not help your situation (I'm living proof), it may help you feel justified (it did) and help you to get it out in the moment, but in the end talking, unless it is to the person who you feel said way about isn't constructive. If you don't have something nice to say, definitely don't say it on the internet. 

 Forgiveness is hard, I am still working on this one. I have a different approach to this one than many would. There is a saying, "forgive & forget." Well I don't entirely agree with this statement. Forgiveness is important & it is mostly for your benefit, when you forgive someone who hurt you, you are able to let go of the hard and hurtful feelings you have. I do not think forgetting is necessary, under one condition, use the remembrance of what was done to you to NEVER let anyone, yourself included, hurt you in that way again. Use it as a tool to build more strength. 

 Something I wish I would have adapted to this situation as it was unfolding is perspective. I was very caught up in how was affected, how I was treated, and did not choose to acknowledge that I wasn't the only one with a story. Taking on the perspective of someone who is involved in your struggle can help you gain clarity. Clarity of intention. There are 3 sides to every story, yours, theirs, and what actually happened. Keep that in mind. 

 If you situation continues to hurt you and you feel there is no way out. Make a way out. We all have a choice, no one is forcing you to stay in your situation. No matter how involved you think you may be, you always always have a choice to move on. Get yourself out of the hurt that is around you. Do everything you can to move on from your situation. Get up and walk away. Whatever that means to you, know that you have the strength to move on.

Now what? Now I move on with my life, the way I should have so long ago. Now I will demand more of that I need and more of what I deserve from everyone in my life. I will continue to work hard to provide and support for my baby & I will do my very best to coparent in a positive way. All I want is for my baby to know her parents have a mutual respect each other, and that we love her so damn much and that's what I am striving for moving forward. I am stronger than I was before, I will continue to be strong, I will be an example of hard work and a strong confident woman so my baby will learn how to do the same. I will strive to be a peacemaker in my home & I will do my best to trust those who haven't earned it.

Mic Drop 

dress: cotton on // shoes: c/o famous footwear // glasses: c/o glasses shop  // backpack: forever 21 similar // choker: be more collection

photos: shleeeeeeee

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Monday, September 26, 2016

Walk the Walk

So if you ever frequent Downtown Provo you've probably seen this girl and her stroller. It's ME! No but really, I am always walking around this little town! Usually to Sodalicious... okay always to Sodalicious. I started walking a lot when the Queen was about 5 months, she was waking up regularly at 7am & I was not about that life, but like whatcha gonna do?! So we walked.. and walked and walked and walked (get it?).  We started walking 1 mile a day, then 2 miles a day & then before I knew it we were walking 4-6 miles a day. Who had I become? For 2 straight months I would walk miles on miles with my baby. As summer came in hot (getit?!) we started walking less and swimming more. Boy did I miss it!! I am sooooo excited that with Fall here the mornings are getting chillier and the days have a freshness about them! We are back at it with my City Select Stroller because it is the freaking best, so versatile. I can legit turn her around to see me when I need a Queen fix (which is basically always) and it fold up super easy. I know my little is excited too! To say the Queen loves walks is an understatement! If you don't believe me you've never seen my snap chat. She is literally me. She is nosey, she has a staring problem and she lives to be outside. oh, and she loves french fries. So there you have it! If you need us we will be strolling the streets in style. Say hi if you see us, but don't honk bc I can't handle honkers. ya feel?

top: be more collection // pants: asos // boots: mindy mae's market // stroller: city select

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Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Rock Your Body....Suit

Oh Heeeeeeey there! It's HUMPDAY! The week is half way over and I feel like I've already taken over the world. So you know that's like reeeeal good. Many of you know I own a clothing collection called Be More & I have been busting my buns working on growing it the past couple of months like reeeeeally bustin & I am so excited for all of the awesomeness coming with it! Something that is important to me with the brand is not only providing on trend affordable pieces but being able to give back! I am working on a project with a few different influencers and we are so excited because we will be giving 100% of the proceeds of this project to our scholarship fund! SOOOOO excited! So yeah, anyway that's something to watch for! If you want to be apart of the project send me a lil email to & i'll give you the dets! Also exciting..... these Body Suits from Be More! I love them so much! I legit feel like I am wearing a onesie and that I match the Queen like 100. So maybe check them out?! & get a good ol discount for my HUMPDAY sale! bc why the hell not. Scroll to the end of the post to get the code. 

take 30% off your be more collection order with code humpday

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Friday, September 16, 2016

Walking to running in 10 months flat

Happy 10 months to The Queen. what in the literal hell. How? How is she so big? she is 10 months going on 20 I swear. Her newest trick is walking. She took interest in walking holding both of your hands starting at 7 months. yes, before she was even crawling I was convinced she would just skip crawling all together, but she still enjoys a good crawl. At about 9.5 months she started taking one or two steps and then gave up. 2 weeks later the girl wants to walk 500 miles. (get it?!) She is the funnest little angel and the happiest human i know. seriously she is always happy. how is she mine? idk. That's a fun update on The Queen! As for me I have just been busy doing whatever it is i do. Working and bossing people around. I'd say I am quite good at it. I am finally feeling like ME again! and its about freaking time. Postpartum is almost at a year, i've lost my baby weight (praise) and I am finally enjoying getting dressed again. I am loving all of the fall trends & I am excited that I will be bringing you more! And more of The Queen's style along with awesome things from Be More! So so so many things. If you've followed my instagram you know some video's are coming! Hold on to your seats for those. My personal life is about to get real public & vulnerability is at an all time high. So stay tuned for that, but until then, check out my first fall look featuring the Play Ball Cap from my Be More Collection. NOW on!! 

top: cotton on // pants: asos // shoes: Adidad Neo c/o famous footwear // hat: c/o be more collection on // 
top: c/o june & january // shorts (cut from jeans & diy frayed): target // shoes: c/o famous footwear //  bow: c/o everly avenue

photos: shleeee

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