Saturday, May 6, 2017

Ignorance.

Oh how I've missed you lil blog. I've had so many changes, so many thoughts, feelings, struggles, blessings, and so much to tell you. I just haven't known where to start. So here I am back where it all began.



I stopped blogging for a while because I didn't feel it was worth my time. I positioned myself into a lot of projects, mostly just to fill a void I felt in my life created by choices by myself and others. With so many large, and hard to palette changes in my world I choose the only healing I knew. Ignorance. Now I will use this word in a different way than most, mostly because I don't know the real word for what I did. SO ignorance it shall be. I ignored my life. I placed projects and people in my life to ignore what was really going on in my world. I didn't want to believe that I had failed. So I chose to succeed. I felt completely out of control, so I took control. Control of the one thing I could, Me.



I took the hard things in my life, and put them out of my mind by staying mind numbingly busy. I worked tirelessly for myself, for friends, and on any and every project I could get my hands on. I stopped eating. I rarely slept.

I always mothered at my best. I couldn't control how my baby was always being loved and cared for. Who she spent her time with, although I sure tried, what she ate, how well she slept. But I could, and I still do when she is with me. Because along with all of the things I have done, and am doing, motherhood chose me and I make the conscious choice to give it my best every day.

9 months of mind numbing ignorance finally brought me to my knees January 1, 2017. Just 4 and a half short months ago. Sobbing uncontrollably on my kitchen floor I could no longer live in my ignorance.



January 31st I walked into a therapist's office for the first time in 4 years. I was ready to admit I was not who I knew I could be. Bi weekly sessions vocalizing what I chose to ignore for so long.

Clarity, security, closure, and growth.

The void no longer felt like a void. But rather freedom. Freedom from the lies I had deemed as truths. That my best wasn't good enough. That I wasn't enough. That I couldn't have it all. That my dreams were less than others. That my dreams were more than others.

February 21st I signed a 3 years lease to my dreams. Be More Creative Studios. A place that could help others, a place of love and solace. A place for cultivating creativity. A place of growth and security. A place where people could live out their dreams.



7 weeks of renovations, doubts, encouraging words, clear visions, and blurred intentions.

April 8th. With saw dust remaining on the floor, the doors to Be More Creative Studios opened.

A Bride and her Groom had their first look in my natural light studio for the first time. Love. Simultaneously the Be More Collection team with our photographer shot products for our Spring Looks. Creativity. My little queen ran around with my business partner & boyfriend as I oversaw everything. Growth & Security. Every dream I had came to life in that moment. Satisfaction, love, and validation ran through me. I was enough, my dream was someone else's dream & I could have it all.

Doubts are real. Self doubt is valid. The nights you spend feeling or being alone are preparing you for harder moments that you WILL endure. The potential you have is stronger than any hard moment, any loss you feel. Any void you have one day will be filled. Dare to follow that dream, walk away from the things holding you back, even if you think they are the only things keeping you together. Your strength will come from within. Find your clarity, create your security, fight for your closure, and the growth you will find will push you to things you never knew existed.





Photos: Cameron Kirby
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Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Warmer days have got us on the move.



Spring has sprung... and then unsprung, and then sprung again here in Utah!! But the Queen and I have been lucky the last few weeks to sneak in our FAVORITE activity on some of the warmer days!! We LOOOOOVE our walks!! It's no secret that I exist in a 5-7 block radius!! My Be More Collection office is currently 3 blocks from our home (with the move to our new HQ it will be 3.5). My current salon is only ONE block from where we are living & my healthy habit of Sodalicious is about 4 blocks away! So needless to say we do a LOT of walking!!

We just recently started using the Evenflo Pivot Travel Stroller & mommas, this thing is the business!! I wish we would have gotten it earlier because it has so many cool features!! The Queen is a full blown toddler now, and she insists on having both a sippy and snacks on walks, #diva (wonder where she gets it). The Evenflo Pivot has a detachable snack tray perfect for her lil baby hands to reach for snacks!

The seat transforms from a bassinet all the way to sitting up toddler seat, and the car seat can also be attached to the stroller!! WHERE WAS THIS FOR THE NEWBORN DAYS?! Am I right?

Alas, we are enjoying it's functionality, durability and lightweight frame & I am stoked for warmer days so I can really see what this baby (the stroller, not the actual baby) can do!! Thank you to Evenflo for kindly sponsoring this post. And giving us the opportunity to see what Evenflo is all about! We are converted & can't wait to try other Evenflo products like this car seat we just got for outings with the babysitter! 












 All opinions are 100% honest & completely my own.

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Friday, February 10, 2017

Preeeeeeach

Take a walk down memory lane with me will you.... it's the Fall of 2014, I was just hired as a marketing assistant for a UT local clothing brand after being a freelance stylist and image consultant. I wanted experience, I wanted to work for a REAL company, I wanted a steady pay check.

Like most jobs, the first few months were full of the fun stuff, I was the assistant to the Marketing Director, so my job was THE FUN stuff! On set styling, pinning to Pinterest, email campaigns, instagraming, you know... the fun stuff! Fast forward a few months. Personal life: FINALLY launched my own clothing collection & passion project, Be More Collection. Found out I was pregnant (SURPRISE everyone, myself included)!! Work life: internal changes & restructuring. Promotion to Marketing Manager (aka salaried job with consistency & security).

My clothing collection has a HUGE passion behind it. That passion, is a need and a want to help others cultivate their creativity & promote a self sustaining life through their talents. That was the foundation it started on, and that is the foundation we continue to live on. If it doesn't cultivate creativity and passion, we ain't about it.

Back to my "Big Girl Job." As I mentioned, I was pregnant. Did I mention I was also working as a hairstylist 12-15 hours a week, on top of my 9-5 "Big Girl Job"? Oh, and "running" my own online clothing collection on top of that? What can I say, I'm a workaholic.

While working at this big girl job I was able to expand my network and meet some incredibly talented people. I was able to cultivate relationships with these people & offer unsolicited advice, as I often do (if we have every had a hair party, you've been "blessed" with my soap box). I was telling these babes to go after their dreams no matter the cost. I was trying to invoke the potential I saw in these individuals & push them toward their path of greatness! Here I was sitting behind a desk 9-5 marketing for a company I was not fully invested in, preaching passion and greatness, while I was hiding behind my own. Wah, wah, wah.

As my pregnancy progressed I had some decisions to make. I knew I would take a maternity leave, I also knew I wanted to work after having my baby (cue workaholic tendencies). I also knew I had A BABY to take care of, and I, with my then circumstances, was not in a position to stay home for long. Decisions, decisions.

After a mind numbing day of "working for the man" I knew I couldn't preach with out my practice any longer. I sat down, crunched all of the numbers I could find, I consulted with my baby's dad, and decided it was time to PRACTICE WHAT I WAS PREACHING.

I didn't know how I was going to do it, all I knew is I was going to do it. I was going to create a self sustaining life through my talents. I was going to be the mission statement of my own passion project. I was going to be an example to the people I was encouraging. So, 3 weeks before I had my baby girl, I quit my "Big Girl Job" and went full force freelance & hairstyling again. 

15 months later (and a TON of hustle, like holy holy, the hustle is real) I am embarking on the most INSANE venture I ever have taken on. I am taking a HUGE leap of faith on this new project, I've made my plan, I've crunched all of the numbers and I am practicing what I am preaching (bout time, am I right?!)! I am diving in head first, and I want you to dive in with me.

If you're ready to life your life, I want to help you to stop waiting for the right time, and to create the right time! Slide into my email (it sounds way better when you say DM's, but like, we will take what we have), tell me your dreams, tell me your passions and let me preach to you & let me help show you the goodness & potential you have and cultivate the talents you posses.


Can't wait to Be More with you. {bemorecollection@gmail.com}



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Saturday, February 4, 2017

Politics shmolitics

Uh oh.... opening up a can of worms here. I have chosen to stay quiet about my political views for a while now.... during campaigning, during the election, after the election..and now, I am ready to come clean about my views.

Am I a republican? Am I a democrat? It's really none of your business. Am I right? So what DO I believe??

I believe in equal rights, I believe in the law & I believe in making today our best day and tomorrow better than yesterday was. While I won't come out and say how I feel about our current political state in this country, I can say this. We are all children of a God. I believe in a higher power, whatever you believe, YOU BELIEVE IT, hold on to it & let it drive you to do good. I chose not to march for women recently, and spend that day with my beautiful child being a mother, cultivating love and teaching acceptance and empowerment to my young daughter. I am choosing not to walk today. Does that mean I don't want change? Does that mean I don't have love and hope for the refugees and their current struggle? I'll let you be the judge and I will stand by what I believe.

I believe that change starts with us, I believe the children are our future.. that sounds familiar doesn't it? To be frank, I do not care what or who you believe in. If you are spreading goodness by walking the streets (peacefully) with signs, or sitting at home raising children, or blogging about political awareness. YOU DO YOU. I believe in tolerance, love and freedom for all people. Race, gender, rich & poor. We all deserve a voice, we all deserve love and acceptance. We all as HUMAN BEINGS deserve goodness. So lets all get the hell off of the internet hiding behind our computers ruining friendships, and spread some freaking love already why don't we? If you feel oppressed by your current situation, I truly am sorry. I wish you love and acceptance, I pray for it for you.

If you want to fight (peacefully) for the equality and acceptance you or others deserve, you fight.

But know that your fight will look different than mine. We all have different struggles, different views, different trials, different talents and goals. And that, my friends is what makes this world go round. May we all strive to look for the good in the bad, fight for those who do not feel they can fight for themselves. And remember we are all fighting our own battles no matter our race, color, status and nationality. And YOUR FIGHT LOOKS DIFFERENT THAN ANOTHER'S FIGHT.

Last, but certainly not least, God's got us covered, and idk about all of you, but I am going to be spending my time gathering up some food storage, loving and teaching my baby how to be a good human. If we've read the good book, we all can see the signs, we all have read the ending. God lives and loves us all, as imperfect as we may all be. Lets give a little more love, a little more time to things that matter & BE THE CHANGE WE WANT TO SEE.




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Friday, December 2, 2016

Your Face Will Thank You

Hello my people!!! Hope you're all surviving the fact that it's officially winter..... I'm dealing as well as I can! My skin is usually trippin hard core right about now this time of year, but not this time!! Check out why in my video below!! Your face will thank you!!



Ashley is teaming up with me today to give away these amazing Acute Care Strips that are baaaasically like Botox (which is the freaking best). SO head over to insta & enter to win!! 

Ashley Rowan: Rodan & Fields Distributor


801-687-3531
Ashro7311@gmail.com




ICYMI I have added a Beauty Collection to the Be More Collection!! I am soooo excited to start focusing on this passion of mine again, Tara is back everyone!! I am doing a super fun "A few of my favorite things" giveaways over on my instagram for the launch of this new brand!! I will be announcing the winners at our Be More Beauty Launch Party next Wednesday December 7th in Provo!! We will be having a Sun Kissed, Lips & Sip event! Check out the Facebook event & RSVP now to reserve your treatment!! We will be doing discounted Spray Tans, Gel Manicures, Free Styling & playing with makeup & having awesome GIVEAWAYS!! See you there!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Be More, Boomr & Bri Ray

Be More, Boomr App & Bri Ray (say that 3 times fast)!!

Back in October Be More teamed up with Boomr App & Survive Designs for a Breast Cancer Research event & I had the pleasure of meeting The Bri Ray & hearing her perform live for the first time! Being very immersed in the music world here in Provo, as all of my friends are talented musicians I thought to myself, holy cow, this girl has got it where did she come from?! Bri has been singing since she was 8 & started performing shortly after that! Be More, as many of you know, is my clothing collection that is scholarship based & gives back to women who are pursuing a creative career. We want to empower women to pursue careers based off of their talents & we LOVE that Bri is doing JUST THAT! Bri is getting ready to drop a single (this week) & will be debuting it LIVE at Velour Music Gallery in Provo, Ut on Saturday Nov 26th! She will be headlining the show and will be preceded by other female artists including Be More's first sponsored artist, Ashley Hess. The night will be jam packed with some serious Girl Power!

I was able to chat a little bit about Bri's upcoming single with the girl herself and get the inside scoop! "Never There" is taken from some of her personal experience & is about a bad relationship where feelings were make believe and the love she thought she was sharing was.. well, never there! We've all been there girl, we've all been there! It's musical roots definitely give you the pop soul feel! With her inspiration coming from powerhouse voices like Adele & Sam Smith & soulful runs like Tori Kelly & Alicia Keys she will be leaving us with all of the feels!! If you happened to watch the last season of American Idol, she may already be a familiar face! We talked a bit about her experience there & she shared that appreciated her experience and has seen how it has refined her as an artist! If there is one thing she stands by, it is her individuality & her determination to always be true to herself, her music & her beliefs. Preach girl!!

Along with dropping her single Wednesday she will be sharing a music video to accompany it! Bri filmed her video with the Boomr App creative team & has been working closely with their marketing team to share her music with the world! Boomr App is an up and coming social media app that will be making it's own debut before 2016 ends, so watch for more exciting things with them!!

Bri & I also got to play dress up & snapped some pics showcasing new pieces from Be More Clothing Collection! Check those out below!!










Make sure you check out Bri Ray & buy her single "Never There" Wednesday!! And if you're local come hang with me and the Queen at her show Saturday Nov 26th at Velour! Watch out world Bri Ray is here & she is about to take over!

Find Bri Ray

Photos: Ashley Rae 


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Sunday, October 23, 2016

Zippide do da


This week has been something else! It feels like an eternity since I was on vacation in San Diego visting family & supporting my girlfriend at the We Society Event! I have had a complete change of vision and new out look on so many things after leaving "real life" for a few days! I am working on something new and i am nervous to share it with you all, but also everything I learned over my vaca is making it just a liiiiitle easier to put it out there! Something I will explain when the time is right! Anyway, like i said, this week was crazy. So many opportunities have been open to me recently and I have been able to find some resolve in my personal life and damn it feels good to be me again! I have been working on the Be More brand like whooooooa lately & I hired an assistant (in addition to my intern_ to turn up the heat! We have some deals going to Jane.com this week & this top is one of them! I am a sucker for stripe tops, like, I have a problem. But I mean, I need them all. You get it. I know you do! Sneak on over to Jane and grab one of these tops, this is the White with Black striped one! It comes in 3 colors, with two black and white stripe options, and yes, they are different. swears. Okay well off to finish another FUN project! Happy Monday! xoxox







tara: top: be more collection for jane.com // neck scarf: be more collection // pants: target // shoes: musse & cloud
q: top: h&m sold out  // shorts: target (diy cut offs) // sneakers: c/o famous footwear // bow: everly avenue

photos: shleeeeee
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